april showers got me down.

Don't get me wrong, i LOVE rain (and tornadoes)...but all i want to do is lay on the front lawn on my quilt pretending to do my homework while I people watch. But alas, i cannot afford time away from my studies right now...which is why i'm blogging? Yes. Procrastination is, in fact, the name of the game.

I could talk about things that are going on here, but a mixture of frustration and anxiety would make it quite an unpleasant post. SOOO i'mma tell y'all about things you might not know about my world. Yes, this is my world, i am Justin Beiber.

1) This is my grandpa, Howard Homer Hayes.

He'll be turning 97 on May 2nd. Yes. NINETY-SEVEN. 

He has CHF, and when he came to stay with us, we were told he would have 3, maybe 4, months at best. And here we are, 3 and 1/2 years later, making his oatmeal every morning, finding the college basketball channel ever afternoon and playing 4+ games of SKIP-BO every night. 

2) This is my lake. 

Okay, so it's not technically mine, but i love it with all of my heart.
Lake Arcadia sits about a half mile from my house, right over the river and through the woods...just kidding, but it is across a highway. 

Our family loves getting up at about 5 a.m. on summer Saturdays to ski/wakeboard/tube/kneeboard.

Yes, we actually enjoy it. 

3) This is my cell phone.

Yes, i took a screen shot of this...because i felt popular. 

Note: it was 9:50 AM. Who gets that many texts before 10 am? 

This girl!

Actually, it really never happens to me, that's why i felt compelled to take a picture. 

Now i'm actually going to do my homework....HA!

The dealio, Julio.

Words I want to revive this week:

- dealio

- boobie (yes, singular.)

For fear of writing a very self-pitying post about the trials of growing up and how I WANT IT TO STOP, i'll just tell you the good things.

1) I'm an auntie!

Olivia Rose came into this world on March 27th. Gorgeous, i know. PERFECT, in fact. 

My arms literally ache to hold her. 

2) 

YES.

3) Long-limbed friends.

Scarily beautiful?

4) Awkward story time. I can't decide weather that means that it's time for an awkward story or that the story time itself is going to be awkward. Either way: 

I went to Freed this past friday to see Makin' Music.

Twas delightful.

Events:

Saw show.

Saw Bestfriend.

Hugged Bestfriend.

Bestfriend's girlfriend walked up.

Met her.

Accidentally insulted girlfriend's club's show.

Girlfriend left.

Yeah. 

Brittany Spears knew nothing.

At a crossroads.

I don't think anyone truly understands the afore statement before they're in college. I'm in college now and BOY DO I GET IT NOW. Crossroads. Holy Moly, I understand. 

College: Where your childhood understandings become obsolete, you realize you know basically nothing about anything and where life throws a pie of reality right in your face as it laughs like Julia Child and punches you in the butt cheek. 

Just watch, colleges all over the contiguous US will be using the above proposed slogan sooner than you can say all the countries in the world spelled backwards in reverse alphabetical order. 

I know this all sounds really negative, but it's most definitely not. I've just got a cynical sense of humor. It's a problem. I struggle. 

These are the roads in front of me that are currently crossing like a giant bowl of emotional spaghetti: excitement, decision, uncertainty, joy, anxiety and certain death. 

Above these roads looms a dark raincloud with a faintly visible rainbow at the end. 

(I know, the imagery is poorly thought-out and a bit creepy, but...welcome to my mind.)

Hehehe.

I really do love college, it's just that right now these darn roads are scary. 

Although, I've recently realized that i have a GPS. Global Positioning System? Nope.

Godly Positioning System. 

BHAM.

I've powered it up and I have no doubt that it will eventually take me to where I need to be.